Some people have all the luck.

They say to get what you want takes a lot of hard work, and a little bit of luck.

Exactly how much luck are we talking here?  Is it an additive effect, or is it a multiple effect?  I fear the later, which really screws me, because, as everyone knows, anything times 0 is 0.  If I have no luck, then am I fighting a futile battle?

Ok, before you get on me for finding reasons to give up, let me tell you, I'm not giving up.  I'm venting.  I'm venting because I'm frustrated.  I'm frustrated because, after 5 weeks of being out here, I still havent gotten so much as a call back for a job in the oil fields.  I guess its a "right place, right time" kind of situation, which takes a little bit of luck, which brings me right back to my point.

If I'm the kind of person that never wins at games of chance, do I have no luck, or negative luck?  I don't like to gamble anymore because I don't win (except for those few anomalies where I went home with a hundred bucks).  I don't like to play board or video games that rely heavily on chance or luck because I usually lose.  Here's a nerdy example: When running dungeons in WoW with my guild, there is only 1 other cloth wearer.  There might be 4 drops through the entire dungeon that I even qualify for and I get how many?  1 per 3 or 4 RUNS.  Ok, end nerd rant.

Basically the point I'm getting to is, I'm frustrated.  This situation is not entirely what I expected it to be.  Yes, there are jobs, yes they pay more than elsewhere, but if I had to pay for a place to live up here and everything, it wouldn't be worth it.  I'm barely scraping by as it is.

On top of that, I get to sit and watch Pete have exactly what I want, and then tell me that he is low paid by oil field standards.  Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at Pete about it in the least, he's doing what he intended on doing and thats great, I'm proud of him.  It just frustrates the living hell out of me because I pretty much saw this coming.  As soon as he got hired on before I even left Vegas, I knew I'd be up here not finding anything.  I had that gut feeling.  And here I am.  Failing at what I feel like is my last chance to be an adult and be responsible for myself.  I can't spend the rest of my life working at places like Fast Food, or Walmart.  Its not going to cut it.  I had a plan, to get out of debt and go back to school.

But this is where I am.  This is what I have to deal with.

Some people can have their luck, and get handed jobs and promotions and transfers.  I'm not saying these people don't work hard, because I'm positive they do.  I work hard, too.  I may be lazy when it comes to my personal self, i.e. health, but when I'm hired to do a job I do it.  I could just use a little bit of help in at least getting an interview.  Could the fates tip their hats in my way, at all?

I just have to keep hy head down and keep trucking I guess.  Luck be damned.